Wondering...

...when...
...how...
...what should I do with this plateau... while I wait for the unknown to unfold?

Que será será.

Anyway, there are so many aspects of my life to put in order at this moment. An impending test (or make it two) and a miracle yet to happen in the months to come. I am but a human... curious and fearful of the unknown future, desperate to take control just to protect myself from predicted disappointments. Can I let go and let God? Oh, I so want to trust...even if it means staying when I so want to run ahead.

Waiting is supposed to be good for us. It is unlikely that God would work through one, in whom the discipline of waiting has not matured. It would be truly difficult for such a person to fully depend on God and to comply with the seasons He has perfectly set for everything to properly happen.

Can I not stop to admire and smell the flowers alongside the road... even whilst I know that the mountain I am to climb lies visibly in the distance... alluring me with its snow-capped peaks and its great stature? Behold, its height... I will perhaps never have the chance to enjoy the humble wildflowers down on this part of the earth again. Therefore, while I still can, may I breathe in deeply their fragrance so that I would remember when I no longer see them - how they helped me on my way.