Wednesday

Ok... so something went wrong with my blog layout, after I bombed my blog with photos yesterday. Hehe.

Hopefully it will return to normal soon.

I'm just done with a very nice lunch with Xu Wen. It's time to return to working on my youth-talk. Hope to quickly finish it by today, so I can at least begin on one assignment. I know for sure, I have to finish Mr WKC's paper by this week.

Went for my first swim today in ages. *Phew* Ben texted me while I was having lunch to ask me jokingly if I felt any thinner after the swimming :P (I've been whining a little after our weekend away that I've put on quite some weight from eating all that stuff) - Honestly? Well, I did feel 2mm 'smaller' after my swim... but after lunch? :P I don't feel like my swim made any difference... Although, logically... it must have! :D

It's all in the mind.

Gone are the days when I was into fad diets, weight-loss gimmicks, self-starvation and stuff. I've learnt the sad and painful way that none can compare with a balanced diet and regular exercise. And gosh, I realized... if I don't discriminate anyone for their weight, I should not expect others to discriminate me for my weight too. And I shouldn't condemn myself too, if I should gain any weight. Coz my weight doesn't define me. Even when I was 10kg heavier back in my bulimia days, my friends and family still loved me to bits. I was still special to them... because I was and am still ME. Beauty is not skin-deep. Rather, it shines out from the deepest parts of our being.

In the last 2 weeks of weight-gain, (I say this, because all I have been doing is eating, eating, sleeping, pigging-out, eating steroids for my illness and not exercising... My face is starting to grow round...and my clothes, tighter) I have tried to look at my slightly bigger self in the mirror without self-condemnation - and it was so much easier than before.

Rounder face? Ah, pretty. A little more 'flesh' on the arms, legs and tummy? Ah, adorable. A fuller, voluptuous figure? Um... sexy.

My last word? Enjoy it while it lasts.


ED, I've moved on.