Monday, November 9, 2009

The hand of God

About a year ago from today, I wrote this in my blog...

'Praying about getting a job or continuing education. I don't know where or what I'll end up doing - think, perhaps - something I never even expected myself to be doing in the first place. Please pray that God's hand would be upon me.'

Yeah, I did not really expect myself to be studying (yet again) - in the seminary now. My life takes interesting twists all the time.

Theological education and ministry equipping were nothing but a mere dream since year 2007. I remember myself blurting out to Yeh Han in the PMC library one fine day - "I can't run away anymore... I am going into a full-time Christian vocation..."

He solemnly nodded. (We've been talking about this for some many months already.) "OK. So, where are you going?"

"Um, I need to study in the seminary...?" I paused. Seeing that he looked as doubtful as I felt, I grinned and quickly added, "But... I don't know how I am going to get there... I guess, if it is God's will, He will make sure I get there somehow..."

God's hand was and is surely upon my life. Things I previously thought impossible were made possible. I read through some of my Year 2008 entries at my old Xanga blog today. Realized that last year was filled with much unhappiness (haha), restlessness, doubts and uncertainty... well... until the last week of December 2009 - when Pastor Jeya said the 'magic words', hehe. That was when I knew that the Lord was really confirming His will upon my life again, just as He had done in so many different ways, throughout the past 4 years. Somehow, my heart was filled with peace that day.

Boy, I was so happy at Christmas - that the year was finally coming to an end! Hehe.

Today... on November the 9th ~ I am nearing the end of my 2nd term at MBTS. Christmas 2009 is not too faraway now ~ and I know something for sure ~ This year was amazing... and I don't want it to end so soon! I mean... the assignments were CRAZY. And they will not stop being crazy. But the tough parts were indeed opportunities for me to see God's hand work in my life again and again. God is good indeed. All the time.

So guys... if you ever read my lamentations on my blog 'bout assignments and exhaustion, do know that I am doing it with faith in my heart.

Am I making sense? :P

1 comments:

kevrlee said...

yes =)

you've come this far now sis, and truly God's hands are upon u!

God Bless!

 

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