I wonder.....

Something I used to always ponder on when I was a child was this: Why do we have to make our beds in the morning, when we are going to get back into bed again in less than 24 hours?

Basis for question: plain laziness to drag heavy blankets off the bed (I was a kid, ok), fold them up neatly and straighten out the sheets.

Something I pondered on as a teenager: Why do my friends feel pressured to get into a BGR when I don't? Honestly, I had crushes... and there were umm, guys who asked me out...but I never desired a boyfriend until after I had graduated from high-school. Haha. I think I was a nerd, period.

Reasons for that: Firstly, I was very afraid of giving my heart away and not to mention, I was afraid of being hurt. Secondly, I was very focused on getting into medical school, that I couldn't be bothered with other commitments until I was more certain on where I was going - i.e. staying in Malaysia or going abroad. There were just too many transitions even after high-school (including my mum passing away) that being in a BGR was the last thing I would have ever considered at that time. Thirdly, I was having full-blown eating disorders. I did not love myself. At all. And therefore, I could not trust myself to love someone else.

Something I pondered on as a medical student: Why do some people wait until their loved ones are barely living (and are about to die) to say these 3 words, "I love you" ? Actions may at times speak louder than words... but true words of pure affirmation are most treasured.

As a result of that: I learned to sincerely say, "I love you" to my loved ones... even though it was pretty difficult and awkward at first.

Something I am pondering on today: Home-schooling my kids.

Pretty random, is it not?