Monday

Sorry guys, if my blogposts seems to be very unhappening for next 2 weeks... I'm under tremendous pressure to meet datelines, study for exams this week (starts tomorrow) and prepare for MYF youth retreat next week. Already broke (pockets-wise), after the first week of the month. Feeling pong-pong. And my laptop is still down after its revival at Acer... So it's frustrating. Ah, you have no idea...

I so want a new laptop :P

Stressed.

My weekend was ok. I was sick-ish.. Stomach boo-boos and crankiness the whole weekend (I slept whenever I could) - but I had TLC from Ben for that - so that made up for it pretty much! :) I even had choc-chip + cookie-dough ice-cream from Baskin Robbins on Sunday.

Finished writing the song for that upcoming EFCC ministry event. Praise God for the inspiration. Gotta show it to Aunty PS this Wednesday. One more item ticked off my to-do-list. Phew.

Saturday

Guess what? I didn't get to go to Yataimura with my friends yesterday afternoon, but my boyfriend (who did not read my blog btw) randomly brought me to Yataimura last night...for dinner :D How wonderful!

Today, I'm back to working. I have one song to write for an upcoming ministry event (halfway done) and then I gotta read my Church History textbook... also, to get ready for tonight's YACG bible study.

This month seems to be another month of spending :S After having purchased tickets for Poland Mission trip, I will also have to buy my tickets for Sarawak mission trip. MYF Youth retreat coming up soon - and I gotta pay up tomorrow actually. *Turns empty pockets inside-out to prove my point* Shall remember, 'Blessed are the poor...."

T.G.I.F

Was supposed to have gone out with some of my friends for Jap food in the afternoon. I still feel a little bad for fong fei kei (bailing out) at the very last minute. Sorry, people... :(

I went to Coffee Bean today, after lunch, just to get some time alone... and in a conducive environment. Read a magazine, read my Bible, did my quiet-time and sipped coffee ice-blended Mocha. It felt good. I needed it.

Today...

Slowly losing myself.
Honestly, I think I need to leave...
We will... but right now, I can't
It's just not the right timing
I'm sorry to have to plead...
but please will you wait for me?
Don't leave me here,
all on my own...
Coz I won't be able to go on alone...

Wednesday

I'm highly stressed at this point *chew nervously on fingernails*... I'm loaded with stuff to do and my OT survey assignments are due next week. And I have to study for 2 exams!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH...

As soon as I remember I have to do something, another thing pops up on my to-do-list.

Just drove back from choir practice at church. O God, please help me to stay awake for a bit longer!!!

Tuesday

Woke up very anxious today somehow...but praying in the car on my way to school afforded much comfort.

Anyway...

Today turned out to be a better day. Golly-schmolly! I am even ready for homework...

I got lost in church history class today. It was too wordy for words (ironic huh?), not visually-stimulating in anyway (sorry...but I am one who needs pictures/music for better mental stimulation)... and I kept drifting into what Ai Hua called, 'the faraway planet'. Of course I felt bad :P I didn't go to sleep but I started staring cross-eyed at our lecturer...the rest is history. Drank like a camel too, because of the hot weather and my burnt tongue (scalded it on Friday night) - and consequently, I kept running to the bathrooms in between classes.

Btw, Church history MCQs + essay exam is NEXT WEEK!!! @_@'

There were just too many things on my mind today - including a whole To-do-list AND how to transfer funds to my dad so that he would be able to get my plane tickets for Poland mission trip in time (by tomorrow). Now that it's all over, I heave a sigh of relief. Ah, praise God! Time to work on saving up for the rest of the trip. I still have got alot more to go, but I believe that God's provisions will come in soon.

Ben and I tried wall-papering one of the pillars in my house over the long weekend - and it turned out pretty nice! I wouldn't have agreed to wall-paper the other pillar if the result hadn't turned out as well as it had :) coz it is actually so tedious! Perhaps there's a better way of doing it - but oh well, there's a first for everything. We'll learn from our mistakes.

Phew...We're alive!!!:P

A trying weekend for me... and Ben - I believe it was a form of spiritual attack.

Prior to the Sunday I was supposed to give a talk to the youths in church YF on 'Eating Disorders and Self-image', these things happened over the 2nd half of last week:

1. I hurt my neck - so bad that I couldn't mendongak kepala, nod or rotate my neck for days... Ah, glad that the excruciating pain finally has subsided! :S

2. Ben lost his wallet on Friday - in Prangin Mall, and that was after we got caught in a religious demonstration in town + massive jam leading to the mall @_@. I guess the massive jam made us both pretty bewildered - that we forgot to be careful like we usually do. It was pretty troublesome... Police report, cancellation of cards, etc... and today we spent the whole day getting his new I/c, driving license, bank cards etc made... Thank God, they are 75% done.

3. My PC crashed on Saturday morning. Praise God, I had already printed out my talk notes on Friday! @_@ ACER service center finally opened today after shutting down over the weekend. My files and system were mysteriously 'corrupted' so that my lappie couldn't start up. My hard-drive was wiped empty! :( Not like I did anything extraordinary with my laptop before shutting it down on Friday. With so many assignments due so very soon, Ben had to transport his PC to my house, so that I can do my work over the next few days of laptop-less-ness...

4. It didn't help that I was depressed about something totally unrelated to the above throughout the whole weekend. I can't even share it here.

5. I was a meanie to my boyfriend :S (I'm so sorry, dear... :( Even though you have forgiven me, I still awfully bad about it.) I don't know how to make up for being a meanie.


The talk went ok. I didn't think I'd make it :P But praise God, the youths, Unc. Geam Liang and Aunty Valerie were so encouraging:)

Thank God, we're still alive, albeit exhausted!

I'm so reluctant to go to school tomorrow... :( *Boo hooooo*